What Am I Doing?

I've been thinking a lot lately. And I just realize that there's no way I am going to reach my dreams if I continue to stay where I am right now, if I continue to do what I am doing right now and if I continue to be what I am right now.

I have a lot of big dreams and I have promised myself that I would  make them all come true. So, what am I going to do? Should I stay or should I leave? Nothing is happening to me here. My dreams seems to be very far away from here. And I decided to chase my dreams because my dreams are not only for me. They are also for all of those who matter. 

I want provide my love ones everything they need. I want to give them the things they never had. I've heard too much stories about how hard our life way back then. And I swear that it will never ever happen again.

I'll go after my dreams and I won't stop until I reach them.

One day I'm going to watch the Wimbledon, the Australian Open, the NBA Finals and the World Cup live right before my very eyes.
One day I will have a very nice home and a super cool car.
One day I will be able to buy everything I need. Food, clothes and everything.

One day I am going to reach my dreams.

When you can't speak, WRITE

Because I am not a good talker, I usually write everything I want to say.

This one goes for my sister who deserves so much more than a poem.

16 Years Older

I was only five when she went abroad

To help our parents buy us food

She was just twenty two when she left home

She had to work far all alone

So I always wonder what it’s like

Growing up with her at my side

She was so far, so far away

I never knew what she has to say

If life was just easy and money not scarce

She would have not work many miles afar

She went there to help our parents make a living

She’s there to help us realize our dream

My only childhood memory with her

Was when she bathes me in a well

I can never thank her big enough

For the great sacrifice she did for us

She’s thirty seven when she fell in love and decides

To go to Down Under and be a bride

The situation and place may have change

But some things always remain the same

I was five then, now I’m twenty three

Still wondering what she has to say

‘cause my sister is three thousand miles away

And she’s sixteen years older than me

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And this is all about my precious childhood memories.

Growing Up Sunshine

Growing up near green fields with a lot of carabao grass

Playing with my little sister letting time pass

Wake up in the morning and hear the birds sing

Feel the soft sunlight as it touches my skin

Early in the morning searching for green pasture

Sticking up with my big brother doing his chore

Riding on Julio’s back heading to the river

Time for the big fellow to bathe in the water

Picking grasses’ leaves under the midday sun

Playing little chefs with my sister for fun

Boiling mud and clay trying to make desserts

We both ended up staining our shirts

Standing by the window watching the setting sun

As many birds gather and sing at the pond

At night it’s so quiet and you can soundly sleep

And dream of memories that play for keeps

Life goes like this in my growing up years

Which I now reminisce with my eyes in tears

Fun and happy are my memories back then

 Now my growing up sunshine is never the same

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What I Always Really Wanted

One thing I really want to do is grab a camera and go somewhere. Take pictures. Enjoy the scenery. And then write about it. I really love taking pictures. It's one of my passion. I also love to write. Sometimes I just grab a pen and then write whatever comes into my head. 

Dark Angels' Happy Times

Good memories with good people. Friends who have been through everything.

Friends who have shared laughters and tears and stories.

    Vocation Jamboree

    Pilgrim Walk-----Youth Camp

    Popoy's Birthday

    Pamuso Trippin'

    Christmas Party

All our memories together are worth remembering. I will cherish all of it forever.

Dark Angels will forever be in my heart.♥♥★★✔

Shaken Friendship

Do you know what it feels like when your friends are not in good terms especially the ones who are so close to you? It’s like being tossed so up high in the air and nobody is there to catch you. It’s really that hard. And it’s really that sad. You really don’t know what to do. You can’t take side. You can’t choose because they both mean so much to you.

This is what bothers me right now. I’ve never been through this before. I tried to patch things up between them. It’s just sad because it didn’t work out. I thought it did. I thought they’re okay. But I was wrong. I’m just not good in things like this. When things go wrong and when my friends need me, I suck. I can’t find the right words to say. And much worse, sometimes I can’t even speak. 

When I look at some old pictures of us together it would make me wonder what went wrong. We were so happy. We were so united. Friendship like the one we shared is true and strong. It’s the kind of friendship you would do everything to make it last forever. It has a very strong foundation. I once thought it will never be shaken. But it is now. And now it’s all up to them if they will at least try to save their friendship for old time’s sake. 

Is it pride that is ruining this friendship? Is pride more important than friendship? At some point in our lives people we love and who loves us will hurt us. We just have to accept that. 

They’ve been through a lot together. They’ve shared laughters and tears. They’ve shared memories that are worth remembering. This is why I will never stop believing that everything will be okay, that they can patch things up.

There are only very few people I care about. It includes both of them. And I want the issue between them to be settled. I’m not good at talking that’s why I had written all I want to say. 

I hope that they will open their hearts and give their friendship another chance. It’s worth it.